Wednesday, November 01, 2017

Listen to me

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I am posting a blog after a very long time. Lot of things have happened in last couple of years. Most too bleak and sad to discuss and the rest not worth discussing. I have seen highest of highs and lowest of lows in last few years. The only way I sailed through it was because of people who were there for me, listening to my sob stories day-in and day-out.

I just realized there would always be people standing by you suggesting you, what to do and what not to do... what to feel and what not to feel... what to say and what not to say. No matter how good they want things for you to be but the end result would always leave you feeling utterly horrible about yourself. You will land up questioning every action that you made, every word that you spoke... making you feel extremely incapable of handling things. As I say that, I am aware of the fact that all they wanted was good things for me and I am thankful for that.

Do you know who makes you feel extremely comfortable in such situations? Well people who are good listeners. Yes, they won't bludgeon you with their advises, they won't point out where you went wrong, what you did wrong or what you said wrong. They would just listen, quietly and patiently to every word said. Their mere touch of a hand calms you down, showing you in no words that they share and feel your pain. You know that he or she will be there standing by you, without knowing, without judging or without coming up with cures, they would be standing with you facing the reality of your powerlessness. These are kind you want around you. They are your true friends.

Word of wisdom to the void(not sure if anybody would read it)... cherish them, they are the ones that makes life easier.

Monday, June 05, 2017

100 days of happiness challenge - Curse Lifted.

Day 1

Quote of the day:
“Biting my truant pen, beating myself for spite:
"Fool!" said my muse to me, "look in thy heart, and write.”
― Philip Sidney, Astrophel and Stella

My last post was on 31/08/16, I have been on almost 10 months of self-imposed sabbatical. Did I miss blogging? Yes, I did. I can easily recall more than a dozen times sitting in front of my laptop determined to write a blog post but somehow couldn't. My friends opined that I am suffering from a 'writers block' but I feel I am/was too distracted. Because all of a sudden I developed this huge fascination for watching YouTube, reading Quora and Reddit.

It's a fascinating world, I must say… reading interesting stories, watching even more interesting stuffs. But I did realize I was leaving a hobby that I was most passionate about... way behind. My family mocked me by saying "Blogging is one of the many things you started and left mid-way." My inability to write and consistently switching tabs as if possessed and watching and reading random things for hours disturbed me... yes it did. But heart of heart I was enjoying every minute of it.

I still look at my 6 incomplete short stories with despair, having no clue what to write next. I have blamed the internet, disconnected my laptop from the available Wi-Fi, every time I did that, I fell asleep.

But today it's different, like always I was watching YouTube "abandoned castles in the world" though pretty interesting topic and it did held my attention for some time. But all of a sudden I had this major urge to write a blog. So here I am writing one.

I still have this strong urge to check on my Facebook, watch a video on YouTube, but I am determined to write a blog. I really hope I feel the same tomorrow too. Writing after such a long time... feels great; it feels as if some curse has been lifted, as if I could see a nice bright silver lining in a dark gloomy sky. I am already feeling lighter and happier.

So cheers my dear readers, I hope to complete my 100 days of happiness challenge and with that return back to writing.