Conversation - An Introvert's Biggest Enemy
Let me tell you about an incident. When my eldest sister got engaged, after a lot of self-talk mustered up enough courage to walk up to my brother-in-law and congratulate him. I went there, smiled, put my hand forward, and forgot the word I needed to utter, my mind went blank, and I couldn't remember the word "Congratulations." I am not exaggerating here, but I broke into a cold sweat. I think twice or thrice before calling a waiter and do without internet when wi-fi goes off because that would require me to contact my internet provider.
Every time my friends plan a get-together, I nod my head and agree but in my mind, I am already thinking of excuses that I could come up with so that I don't have to go. When I do go, I need time off for at least a week to get my energy back. I love my friends, I will kill for them but socializing is exhausting.
May God bless the soul who invented the internet and social media. For the first time, I realized how extroverts must feel when they put their points across when in a company. I always dreaded face-to-face meetings, still not very keen on talking on phones, but online chatting I can happily do for hours, I feel I am at my wittiest best then. Told you, I am a true-blue-introvert.
With COVID came work-from-home, and I could feel my extrovert friends getting agitated with being stuck at home; well, I had never been happier. It meant I could stay at home all day, every day. No one was visiting, and I could watch TV and read books all day. Even office meetings didn't require us to switch on cameras. It was heaven in Pajamas.
Recently, a friend told me that I am not an Introvert but an Ambivert, meaning that I am the best of both worlds; on social media and with my friends, I am an extrovert, and in all other situations, I am an introvert. I like the sound of it... whatsay?
Hope you enjoyed reading it!!
Disclaimer: I am participating in Blogging from A-Z challenge 2022, and this is my post for c - Conversation- An Introvert's Biggest Enemy.
My biggest enemy too. I am dreading going to office from next month as they reopen..i am terrible at socialising.....I am happy with this life ....hybrid model is good and all but the introvert in me got fully alive in covid.
ReplyDeleteRelatable post for me
My boss thinks I broke my leg so that I could avoid coming to work... that's the reputation I have. Thank you so much :)
DeleteROFL :)
DeleteThis hits me where I am as I am also a classic introvert. My wife jokes that I could be an artificial intelligence since I'm so active on social media but so reserved in real life.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your first A to Z and entering your 40s. I'm 8 years into my 40s now and it hasn't been so bad, except for the whole pandemic thing.
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Will Do. Thank you so much. :)
DeleteAbsolutely right. At times even I feel given a choice of going out or staying alone at home, I'd rather pick the latter anytime π. I totally agree with this post of yours Mix πππ
ReplyDeleteAn apple doesn't fall too far from the tree
DeleteOh I hear you. I was an introvert until my junior college. I don't know what happened then, but I started getting comfortable around people I knew a bit. Of course, I am an extrovert now but give me a mic and ask me to introduce myself in front of a crowd and you can see my nervousness π Loved reading this post and yay to internet!!!
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I am jealous of extroverts. Things are so much easier for you people. Anyways, thank you so much dear.
DeleteI used to be more introverted but now I am a full on extrovert.
ReplyDeleteI have no idea how that happened!
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Lucky you. Well I am an online extrovert, so i guess, I m almost there. Thank you for visiting :)
DeleteOh I hear you - everytime I went with a group of friends - I got so self conscious that I would have a hundred conversations in my mind even before talking. And even then I was so afraid of making a mistake that these groups of people would never know the real me.
ReplyDeleteIt is slightly better these days - I would highly recommend the book - Quiet by Susan Cain if you're interested. It is a nice read about introverts and helped me understand a little more about myself.
I agree... I too feel my friends and family are yet to know me. Will definitely read the book. Thanks a lot.
DeleteI am the extrovert that collects introvert friends and takes them out on quiet walks sometimes :D
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Hahahah, well in my case my extrovert friends have adopted me and I am not complaining :P
DeleteI'm an introvert, but am capable of being and conversing with others when I feel up to it.
ReplyDeleteYeah, so is the case with me. I am pretty talkative with my friends not so much with strangers.
DeleteThen I must I am lucky to be one of the few you meet! And had you not told this, I would never have guessed. Because with me you're so chatty, someday I might even beg you to stop! :D .. you're perfect the way you are girl. But, I like the sound of ambivert, hadn't heard that before!
ReplyDeleteI am super comfortable with you since indifiction days. So, I am pretty talkative with you. But I kinda avoid most.
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